Thoughts of all of the evil in the world.
Thoughts of why God continues to let us go on like this.
Thoughts of the abundant grace that we have been given as a human race and questions as to why Jesus hasn't returned yet when it is this bad.
I am actually in tears while writing this, as I listen to the incredible voice of Christina Grimmie, who was shot yesterday and killed at her own concert.
I think about the victim in the Brock Turner Stanford rape case.
I think of the terrorist attacks all over the world.
I think of the thousands of babies being aborted daily.
This world is a very scary place. It is evil and cruel.
Why? Because there is an enemy in it who is very active.
An enemy of God, with a goal to convince minds to act on every evil thought.
Sometimes I let the fear of this enemy come into my own mind.
I fear following my dreams of singing and touring the world, like Christina.
I fear allowing myself to be present on the internet and build a personal community.
I fear traveling to far off places and putting myself in harm's way.
Today, I saw a picture of Paris and I thought, wow I would love to visit there.
Then, the recent tragedies of terrorism interfered with my idea and I questioned it.
Thing is, these 'fears' only stop me if I let them keep me from acting.
The thoughts themselves can be acknowledged.
But I must not let the enemy win and keep me from living my dreams.
This applies to us all.
In this life, we will see evil.
We can choose to live in fear because of it or choose to embrace the power of Christ.
No power of hell can stop us if we surrender our destiny to Jesus.
We must understand that there is no fear in love.
God is love.
He wants the best for our lives.
We may not easily comprehend why he allows evil to continue.
We may not think it's fair.
But ultimately His plan is being played out.
One day He will return and bring judgement upon the evil.
And one day, those of us who love and abide in Him will be taken home.
"By this we know that we abide in him and he in us, because he has given us of his Spirit. And we have seen and testify that the Father has sent his Son to be the Savior of the world. Whoever confesses that Jesus is the Son of God, God abides in him, and he in God. So we have come to know and to believe the love that God has for us. God is love, and whoever abides in love abides in God, and God abides in him. By this is love perfected with us, so that we may have confidence for the day of judgment, because as he is so also are we in this world. There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear. For fear has to do with punishment, and whoever fears has not been perfected in love. We love because he first loved us." (1 John 4:13-19 ESV)
"JESUS CHRIST IS MY LORD AND SAVIOR and i'm not at all ashamed of it."
As I watched the video I could sense her passion for the words.
Once she reached the last verse of the song, chills took over my whole body and my tears came pouring down. As she sung:
No guilt in life, no fear in death,
This is the power of Christ in me;
From life's first cry to final breath.
Jesus commands my destiny.
No power of hell, no scheme of man,
Can ever pluck me from His hand;
Till He returns or calls me home,
Here in the power of Christ I'll stand.
I sat in silence when the video ended.
I felt feelings of sadness that such a beautiful soul was taken from the Earth.
Yet, I also felt a peace that through this tragedy, she may be used to inspire others to devote their soul and destiny to Jesus.
For this is the only way any of us can live without fear, defeat evil, and spend eternity with our Savior.
As Christina's publicist stated, "Christina has passed and went home to be with the Lord,"
Christina has inspired me to live without fear and live my dreams. Whether that means pursuing music or just being vulnerable and personal with the world. Please share this so that more can be inspired and continue to pray for Christina's family.